Monday, February 25, 2008
Oh My lots going on in my life
Thursday, February 21, 2008
How Fast are You moving??
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Moms That feel Invisible
I'm Invisible
It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, 'Can't you see I'm on the phone?' Obviously not; no one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I'm invisible. The invisible Mom.
Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this?
Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, 'What time is it?' I'm a satellite guide to answer, 'What number is the Disney Channel?' I'm a car to order, 'Right around 5:30, please.'
I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated summa cum laude - but now they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never to be seen again. She's going, she's going, she's gone!
One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a friend from England. Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in. I was sitting there, looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hard not to compare and feel sorry for myself as I looked down at my out-of-style dress; it was the only thing I could find that was clean. My unwashed hair was pulled up in a hair clip and I was afraid I could actually smell peanut butter in it. I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully wrapped package, and said, 'I brought you this.' It was a book on the great cathedrals of Europe. I wasn't exactly sure why she'd given it to me until I read her inscription: 'To Charlotte, with admiration for the greatness of what you are building when no one sees.'
In the days ahead I would read - no, devour - the book. And I would discover what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could pattern my work: No one can say who built the great cathedrals - we have no record of their names. These builders gave their whole lives for a work they would never see finished. They made great sacrifices and expected no credit. The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God saw everything.
A legendary story in the book told of a rich man who came to visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man, 'Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will be covered by the roof? No one will ever see it.' And the workman replied, 'Because God sees.'
I closed the book, feeling the missing piece fall into place. It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, 'I see you, Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around you does. No act of kindness you've done, no sequin you've sewn on, no cupcake you've baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are building a great cathedral, but you can't see right now what it will become.'
At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong, stubborn pride. I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see finished, to work on something that their name will never be on. The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to sacrifice to that degree.
When I really think about it, I don't want my son to tell the friend he's bringing home from college for Thanksgiving, 'My Mom gets up at 4 in the morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three hours and presses all the linens for the table.' That would mean I'd built a shrine or a monument to myself. I just want him to want to come home. And then, if there is anything more to say to his friend, to add, 'You're gonna love it there.'
As mothers, we are building great cathedrals. We cannot be seen if we're doing it right. And one day, it is very possible that the world will marvel, not only at what we have built, but at the beauty that has been added to the world by the sacrifices of invisible women.
Great Job, MOM!
Friday, February 15, 2008
Happy Valentines day!
Monday, February 11, 2008
The best way to explain....
Wow what a weekend
Ok Look this was outside over the weekend if you look close there is actually a tree in this picture! Mackenzies B-day was nice.. Almost every one didn't show up but for the ones that did THANK YOU.. Mackenzie had alot of fun playing with my sister inlaws little dog bella (its a little purse dog) She got alot of cute clothes and she also got some pretty cool toys to.. We ended up ordering pizza for the few that came I want to say thank you to my husbands famliy who always mange to make it to everything and then to my sister inlaw who always seems to be the first to help even if she is late =) ( I am just glad that she got there safe)
And to my good friend kristi who drove all the way from middleville just for the party THANK YOU And last but no at all least my dad He drove all the way from cedar springs just for the party =) and of course my mom who didn't seem to be having fun but she was there! =) THanks to all Of you i know that mackenzie will be thankful when she gets older to see all the pictures! =)
Now for the no school! I don't understand it we have had no school like the last 3 weeks straight its CRAZY expectaly for the preschool i pay for?? haha o-well i needed to vent at least they are warm and safe!
Thursday, February 7, 2008
HAPPY 1ST B-DAY MACKENZIE
Well it has been 1 year and my baby that used to look like that cute little innocent baby is now growing up i sit and think about this day one year ago i was in alot of pain e-mail what used to be my best friend who was always there thru out the whole pregnacy anyone who no's me knows that i went thru one of the worst pregnecy's ever! But thru everything she was there. I started e-mailing her telling her that my "hips" hurt but at that point i wasn't going to go to the doctors until i seen little miss mackenzie's head =) heres alittle sample of the first part of the e-mail at 8am =)
From: catherine wood [mailto:catherine_wood143@hotmail.com] Sent: Wednesday, February 07, 2007 8:16 AMTo: Lynette BattaglioSubject: Ugh how are you feeling this morning? I feel like i am having a baby =(
I am feeling much better... REALLY or are you messing with me? I wouldlove to leave right now and not come back until Monday!
From: catherine wood [mailto:catherine_wood143@hotmail.com] Sent: Wednesday, February 07, 2007 8:24 AMTo: Lynette BattaglioSubject: RE: Ugh No really I have been Contracting all night REALLY BAD but i don't wantto jump the gun and sit at the hospital and then them tell me to leave uknow But i am hurting for certain =(
Well, it maybe a good thing, in the long run... You know I'm just aphone call or e-mail away! I am not having so much fun today. I amprocessing all of the friend of the court paperwork for new hires.BORING!!!
The last email was at 9:33 and i was at the hospital at 11:30am and i ended up finding out that little miss mackenzie fliped on me and she was coming out belly first and so they had to do a emergency c-section! OMG i was so scared! ( i know that jeremy was too because he couldn't even get his hospital shoe bootys on! =) My friend in the e-mail came rushing up to the hospital and helped him get ready! and then she waited =) little miss mackenzie was born at 2 pm ! Well thats my story and now she is one! and it doesn't seem that long ago but so much has changed sence than its crazy but i thank god for helping me thru that day and i will always greatly thank that friend who was ALWAYS there no matter what! THANK YOU!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
1 day until my baby is ONE!
Today is going to be a nasty day! I am not looking foward to the drive to get the kids i drive across town just so my kids can go to a decent school =) ( and i get good day care) My sister in law has to be about the best person in the world she is a licensed day care provider and she is great with my kids and they love her! She also lives in a really good school district where i hope to be moving soon =) Its going to be a nice night the kids are not going to be home and me and my hubby get to relax with no crazyness of a everyday life.. Every once and a while grandma wants to keep the kids over night and well tonight is the night.. =) I am not looking forward to the cold and 12 inches of snow tho.. =) well thats all for now i am sure that i should do some work now..